Sunday, December 15, 2013

Motherhood Month - 3

Progress:  We have been waiting 7 months and 1 day since being approved.

Mood:  A little down.  Non-adoption related, I'm in PMS and for me that is really bad.  Hopefully AF will come and leave before Christmas yet.  But if not, I'd rather have AF than PMS over Christmas!  Adoption-related, someone I know got chosen to adopt.  This is the first person I know personally who got chosen to adopt.  They were approved after us and waited an incredibly short time.  I'm surprised how difficult of a time I'm having with it.  Also adoption-related, I'm still feeling let down that no one's thrown me a baby shower yet.  I realize that makes me sound selfish, but it's something I've made clear to my husband that I want, and he knows how important gifts are to me, and it would make me feel more like an expectant mother and that others are viewing me that way, and I just expected a baby shower shortly after we got approved and it's been seven freaking months!!  Ah well, maybe there's something in the plans and I don't know about it.  I know it won't be til at least early-January, though, because one of the people I want to be there is gone til then.  I am starting to regret saying I want it to be a surprise though, because it would be nice if I knew something was happening or not.  Another adoption-related thing has me thinking about our future child and their birthfamily and feeling emotional lately but won't talk about it at this point.    

Cravings:  Something with a lot of melted cheese.  Grilled cheese sandwich.  Chicken Spinach Lasagna.  Seven-Cheese Ravioli in Alfredo Sauce baked with cheese.  You get the idea.

Thoughts About Our Child:  Curious if you exist yet.  You exist in God's eye and my heart.

Thoughts About Our Child's Expectant Mom:  Wondering if you will remain in your child's life or if you will disappear and our child will have to search for you.

Most Recent Baby Purchase/Gift:  I may or may not have bought something for Hubby ;) like I do every Christmas.  Curious if I'll get any baby-related gifts from anyone this Christmas, as it is the first year I have put any on my wishlists.  I don't really think so.

This Month God:  Taught me through His Word that He is the God of encouragement, the God of hope, and the God of endurance.  (Romans 15:4-5)  I found the latter particularly encouraging, for when I run out of hope and feel I can no longer endure in this long adoption journey, He will continue to endure!    

2 comments:

  1. I personally was crushed that first year that no one got the baby anything. Be honest with yourself- if you think you will confide in your hubby. He maybe able to help those around you know your desires. I don't think its selfish. No one would think twice about putting something under the tree for a baby if you were pregnant. I would have been perfectly happy had someone just gotten me some baby socks, shoes, or onesie.

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  2. I know how you feel about the baby shower thing. Our church small group did give us a shower a week before we were supposed to take our son home, but during the waiting period I think the only one that bought anything was my Mom. I think people are afraid to buy things and just don't know what to think. It didn't stop me from buying things though. Once we adopted our daughter, and everone saw she was officially ours, we got lots of things.

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