The Joy of the Lord is Your Strength

Sorry I have been MIA for the last few months.  I am still here, forming blog posts in my head, and I am still reading your blog posts as I have time, and I really appreciate when you check by to see if I've posted anything new.

Today I have something really neat to share with you that God showed me as I read my Bible! 

(If you are a Believer, I encourage you to make some quiet time to meditate (definition: think deeply or concentrate on for a period of time; ponder in silence; examine attentively; pray over; study by oneself; etc not the yoga definition of meditation, which I believe is dangerous and evil) on God's words in the Bible.  "You will seek Me and find Me, when you seek Me with all your heart."  Jeremiah 29:13  But off my rabbit trail and back onto the main path...)  

Please read and examine the following portion of Scripture with me:

Acts 16:19-25 (Feel free to grab your Bibles and read from the beginning of verse 16 for more context if you want.  And also all the way to verse 40 if you like.  I assure you, it's worth it.  But for now we're going to focus on verses 19-25b.)

"But when her owners saw that their hope of gain was gone, they seized Paul and Silas and dragged them into the marketplace before the rulers.  And when they had brought them to the magistrates, they said, "These men are Jews, and they are disturbing our city.  They advocate customs that are not lawful for us as Romans to accept or practice."  The crowd joined in attacking them, and the magistrates tore the garments off them and gave orders to beat them with rods.  And when they had inflicted many blows upon them, they threw them into prison, ordering the jailer to keep them safely.  Having received this order, he put them into the inner prison and fastened their feet in the stocks.  About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God."

Note these seven things that Paul and Silas endured.  They were:

1.    seized

2.    dragged

3.    wrongfully accused

4.    attacked

5.    stripped

6.    beaten

7.    imprisoned

But then soak in their reaction... 

They were praying and singing hymns to God!  

Wow!  Dwell on that!  How do we respond when we endure trials?  I have been going through a lot of trials lately and I know a lot of you are, too.  As a dear friend pointed out on Sunday, remember that thanking God for everything, including suffering, acknowledges His perfect will in everything.  When we praise God in every situation, we are accepting that He is in control and His ways are best.  I have found that while trusting Him doesn't make the trials go away, it does give me a measure of peace that can only come from Him.

"Rejoice always,

pray without ceasing,

give thanks in all circumstances,

for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus

for you."

1 Thessalonians 5:18

Hope

Today I want to share with you about hope.  I've been sick (still not sure with what) for over 6 weeks, and a lot of the time I desperately need even a little hope to hang on to.  I need hope that God will heal me yet, hope that this isn't permanent, hope that there is an 'other side' to all this.  I need hope, as in a hopeful feeling, like the opposite of despair.   I need hope that God is good and that He has a reason for my suffering.

Did you know that, in the Bible, "Unlike the English word "hope", the New Testament word contains no uncertainty; it speaks of something that is certain, but not yet realized." (MacArthur study Bible)  When hope is spoken of in the Bible, it is a sure and certain hope; an expectation - a hope in God that is based on who He is and His promises in His Word. 

God keeps my hope alive through His Word, and for those of you who also believe in Jesus as your Saviour, I pray that He gives you hope through these verses, too.

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"But I will hope continually

and will praise You yet more and more."

Psalm 71:14 

This verse puts my focus on God by praising Him.  There is always something to praise God for.  Generally when I'm not feeling thankful, I start with thanking God for saving me, and go from there.  When my focus is on God, it takes the focus off of my problems, and that in and of itself makes me feel less like despairing.

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"...For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself.  Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death.  But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.  He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and He will deliver us.  On Him we have set our hope that He will deliver us again."

2 Corinthians 1:8-10

First off, this verse gives me comfort that other Believers - even if for different reasons - have felt the same way I do - "burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself".  Secondly, there is a purpose to hard times - to make us rely on God.  (There are many other reasons that God allows hardships; I hope to write on that another time.)  To be totally honest, when things are going well, I notice that I feel more confident in myself and I rely less on God.  That is a really bad thing.  I will always need God - desperately.  Now that I've been sick, struggling to breathe and stay calm, not knowing what's wrong with me or if I'll get better on this earth, I've been relying heavily on God.  I really want to get better, yet at the same time...I've been enjoying the close connection with Him.  I have to remind myself that I have grown in my faith even when times have not been hard.  It's just that when you are feeling helpless, you have a choice - will you rely on your husband, your mom, your medication...or will you rely on God?  I've found He's the only one completely strong enough to hold me up.  Thirdly, I love the confident hope in this verse; the promise of deliverance based on past experience:  God did deliver us, and He will deliver us again!  We have set our hope on Him!  Amen!  These words give me assurance that God will heal me from what I am going through - whether in my lifetime or in heaven, I don't know, but I know He will.

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"So we do not lose heart.  Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.  For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen.  For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18

This verse gives me hope because it puts things into perspective for me.  It encourages me that yes, God is strengthening my faith.  It reminds me that what I am going through is nothing compared to how wonderful eternity will be.  It reminds me that what I am suffering now is temporary and will be gone yet, when Jesus decides it's time.  It also prompts me to focus on loving God and loving others, as those things are more important in the long-term.   

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There are many, many other verses in God's Word that give me hope.  Some of them actually use the word "hope" in them, while some don't, they just give you hope!  Open up the Holy Bible (I recommend ESV, but whatever translation you have is better than nothing!) and dig in.  I find, when I am despairing, that there is nothing that gives me more hope than reading and dwelling on God's words.

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I would also like to add this quote that a friend posted.  It really impacted me during a time when I felt like giving up.  (The quote is from Sara Hagerty's book "Every Bitter Thing is Sweet", a book I have not personally read.) 

“I realized that if, at eighty, my body hasn’t known the healing of the Sarah who went before me those thousands of years ago, I will know that I pleased Him with a hope that kept me raw and vulnerable to His touch.”

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I also wanted to share a link to a short devotional titled The Source of Hope.  You can read and/or listen to it.  I think it's really good! 

God is With Us

I have been sick for the last 4 1/2 weeks; at this point, we are still uncertain as to what is wrong with my body.  To be honest, I am really struggling emotionally and am relying heavily on verses like these to provide calm.  I want to share some of the things that God is teaching me during this time; my hope is that God would use these verses, and my thoughts on them, to encourage and comfort those of you who believe in Jesus, and strengthen your faith in Him.

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"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil, for You are with me;

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me."

Psalm 23:4

A shepherd's rod was used to protect his sheep, and his staff was used to guide the sheep.  The Lord's protection and guidance are a comfort to us.  Note this verse does not say the Lord will take us out of the valley of the shadow of death, but that while we are in it, we will not fear the evil in it, because He comforts us with His protection and guidance.

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"And when He got into the boat, His disciples followed Him.  And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves; but He was asleep.  And they went and woke Him, saying, "Save us, Lord; we are perishing."  And He said to them, "Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?"  Then He rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm."

Matthew 8:23-26

Jesus is in the boat - in our storms - with us.  (Also, as a side note, He has the ability to calm our storms if He desires to.  As the Ball Brothers sing, "Sometimes He calms the storm, and other times He calms His child.")  It is a comfort to me to know that God is in the boat with me when I am in a storm, because His presence has a calming effect on me.

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"It is the Lord who goes before you.
He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you.

Do not fear or be dismayed."

Deuteronomy 31:8 (also vs. 6 and Hebrews 13:5)

This is Moses talking to Joshua, who was going to succeed Moses.  Joshua would be going into battle.  The Lord is with us in the battles, never leaving.  Thank You, Lord!

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Motherhood Month - 23

Progress:  Today has been 2 years + 11 months since we were approved for domestic infant adoption.  We have been active (meaning our profile has been available to be shown to expecting birthparents) for 2 years + 6 months of that time.

How I'm Feeling:  When we were approved, we were told that the average wait time (meaning the length of time from the when a couple gets approved until they get chosen to adopt) with our agency was 2 years.  One day my husband and I were talking and each made a guess as to how long our wait would be.  He guessed 1 year + 6  months.  I guessed 2 years + 6 months.  Well, we have now been actively waiting for 2 years + 6 months and...no baby.  So in that way I feel a little sad.  BUT.  The day is not over.  God can do anything.  The phone could ring in the next minute.  Also, I really trust that He knows what He's doing and has not forgotten about me.  He will do what is best for His honour and glory and I know that will be what is best for my husband and I, for our future baby, and for their birthparent(s).  So I will, expectantly and hopefully, continue to wait and see what He does.

"The Lord is good to those who wait for Him."  

Lamentations 3:25a 

Craving:  It's kinda embarrassing how every time I write this answer, it starts off with "Well, I just ate..." lol!  But, yeah, I did just eat some chocolate... :) 

Thoughts About Our Future Child:  

 
Thoughts About Our Child's Expectant Mom:  Getting insight into what your situation may be like by reading articles by birthmothers like this one that I read yesterday.

Most Recent Baby Purchase/Gift:  My sweet mom-in-love (who is currently going through chemo but has only ONE more treatment yet!) dropped by a couple weeks ago "just because" to give me four sleepers she had bought for us!!  That did my heart a world of good - to know that people are still hoping and waiting expectantly with us.

One 3-month for a girl, two 6-month gender-neutral, and one 6-month for a boy.  Those little sheep are my favourite.

This Month God:  I have been learning so much by reading the autobiography of George Muller.  He is the man who started and ran orphanages in England in the 1800's, for thousands of children, completely by trusting in God to provide the funds needed, all for the purpose of showing that yes, God does answer seemingly impossible prayer!     

Who Jesus Is

A couple nights ago I was lying awake feeling stressed out about various things - how was I going to handle a situation that had happened that day, and various other things I was worried about.

Jesus brought to my mind these words:  Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Prince of Peace.

These words are from God's Word, Isaiah 9:6, and are foretelling the birth of Jesus:

"For unto us a Child is born,

to us a Son is given;

and the government shall be upon His shoulder,

and His name shall be called

Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,

Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace."

The words that Jesus brought to my mind comforted me because, as I thought upon them, I realized that...

1. ...a counselor listens and advises.  Jesus listens to my concerns and gives me advice on what to do.
2. ...Jesus, being God, is in control of absolutely everything, so He allows things in my life to happen in ways I don't always like for reasons that only He knows; yet, being mighty, He is also 100% able to change things if He so feels it is best!
3. ...He calms me.  And it is true!  Especially after realizing Point #2, I felt a lot more at peace.

Thank You, Jesus, for who You are!

Motherhood Month - 21

Progress:  Tomorrow will be 2 years + 9 months since we were approved.

How I'm Feeling:  It's kinda a crazy thought that if we had gotten pregnant the day we got approved, we would now have a 2 year old.  I think I'm patiently, hopefully, waiting.  Physically and emotionally I'm just feeling a little crummy...okay, a lot crummy, right now.

Craving:  I'm not super-hungry right now but I would totally take almost anything loaded with melted cheese...grilled cheese sandwich, pizza, you name it.

Thoughts about our future child:  I've been reading so much from adoptees and birth mothers, and we recently watched Adopted, so it's on my mind, hoping that you and I will have a good relationship and that I will be able to help you feel free to be able to talk to me about what you're feeling.

Thoughts about our child's expectant mom:  I hope you will have support, particularly after the adoption as you go back to life with a baby-shaped hole in your heart.  I hope you will be able and willing to be a part of our baby's life, for your sake, his/her sake, and ours, too.

Most recent baby purchase/gift:  Nothing really.

This month God:  Has been teaching me how good He is!  I wrote about it here.

God is Good!

A couple days ago I was feeling pretty discouraged about our adoption.  I wasn't feeling much hope that we'd get chosen.  I had some time to myself right then so I started looking up verses in my Bible on the topic of God wanting good for me.

See, this is something I often struggle with believing - that God wants good for me.  Even though I have been freed from the laws of being a Mennonite when I became a Christian, the old teachings sometimes still hang around the back of my mind without my barely noticing.  Such as that God gives us what we deserve; what we earn - not gifts and blessings out of His love for us.  I'm still having a hard time wrapping my mind around the fact that God wants to give us good things - I find it hard to ask Him for anything but the very practical needs, and the specifically "spiritual" needs.

But I was so encouraged reading my Bible (where I know that everything is true, and doesn't need to be run through any filter checking if there is error of teaching).  I am not one to decide something, and then look up verses to jive with that.  I would rather know what's true.  Here are the Bible verses that impacted me, followed by the truths that God showed me from them:

"Be gracious to me, O Lord,

for to You do I cry all the day.

Gladden the soul of Your servant,

for to You, O Lord,

do I lift up my soul.

For You, O Lord,

are good and forgiving,

abounding in steadfast love

to all who call upon You.

Give ear, O Lord, to my prayer;

listen to my plea for grace.

In the day of my trouble I call upon You,

for You answer me...

...For You are great and do wondrous things;

You alone are God."

Psalm 86:3-7 & 10

He is good!  He does wondrous things!  He answers me!

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"For I know the plans I have for you,

declares the Lord,

plans for welfare and not for evil,

to give you a future and a hope."

Jeremiah 29:11

He is the one in charge of plans for me!  And His plans are for good!

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"Bless the Lord, O my soul,

and forget not all His benefits,

who forgives all your iniquity,

who heals all your diseases,

who redeems your life from the pit,

who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,

who satisfies you with good 

so that your youth in renewed like the eagle's."

Psalm 103:2-5

He satisfies me with good!

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"Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,

the fruit of the womb a reward.

Like arrows in the hand of a warrior

are the children of one's youth.

Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them!.."

Psalm 127:3-5

"Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house;

your children will be like olive shoots around your table.

Behold, thus shall the man be blessed who fears the Lord...

May you see your children's children!..."

Psalm 128:3-4 & 6

"Praise the Lord!

Blessed is the man who fears the Lord,

who greatly delights in His commandments!

His offspring will be mighty in the land;

the generation of the upright will be blessed."

Psalm 112:1-2

Although at first glance these verses didn't feel encouraging to me, they do show me this:

God thinks children are a good thing!

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"Is anyone among you suffering?

Let him pray...

The prayer of a righteous person

has great power as it is working.

Elijah was a man with a nature like ours,

and he prayed fervently that it might not rain,

and for three years and six months it did not rain upon the earth.

Then he prayed again, and heaven gave rain, 

and the earth bore its fruit."

James 5:13 & 16-18

PRAY!  Prayer WORKS!

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And the verse that stood out to me the most...

"Ask, and it will be given to you;

seek, and you will find;

knock, and it will be opened to you.

For everyone who asks receives,

and the one who seeks finds,

and to the one who knocks it will be opened.

Or which one of you,

if his sons asks him for bread, will give him a stone?

Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent?

If you then, who are evil,

know how to give good gifts to your children,

how much more will your Father in heaven give good things

to those who ask him!"

Matthew 7:7-11

God will give good things to me when I ask Him because He is good! 

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I hope you have found this encouraging!  Perhaps you don't struggle with believing that God does good things for His people out of the goodness of His heart the way I do, but regardless, I hope these verses have encouraged your faith in Him as they have me!