Sometimes I get so weary of advertising ourselves; trying to sell ourselves; waiting to be chosen; waiting to be wanted; hoping we're good enough; being dependent on others decisions and choices before we can move forward.
Adoption. Waiting for someone to choose us. To be matched with us. To want us to parent their child. Waiting for The Call.
Career. My husband is a pilot and has his application in at a number of places; has had them in for quite a while. We are waiting for that call to fulfill his dream.
Our house. Our house is up for sale; has been for a few months. Been shown about 8 times but no bites.
My business. I sell Regal (Canadian catalogue company) from home as an independent rep. I am continually advertizing. I am continually hoping someone will actually follow through and place an order when they say they want to.
There are two things that I, as a Believer in Christ Jesus, take from this:
One, because I desire God's will for my life, I can choose to thank God for these various circumstances we are in, and contentment will follow. "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 "The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:5-7 I can thank Him for the situations as they seem (bad), and I can thank Him for the good in them - that we are approved to adopt, that my husband has a good job currently (gravel truck driver), that we have a good home to live in that has room for a baby, and that I have a little business so that I can help earn a little income and feel useful, and I can thank Him for however He will work these situations out in the future as He sees fit. See? I am feeling better already! :)
Two, I am just so grateful that I do not need to advertise myself to God. I don't need to try and sell myself to Him. I do not need to strive to be good enough for Him in order to be wanted by Him. Before I was saved, I did not need to clean up myself the way I have to clean up my house before a showing. I just needed to believe in Him - in Jesus, God's Son - and that He died instead of me because my sin needed to be paid for, to be made holy and righteous - "good enough" - in God's eyes. And now I remain always forgiven and accepted by Him! "All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned - every one - to his own way; and the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of us all." Isaiah 53:6 "And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in Him may have eternal life. For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through Him. Whoever believes in Him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God." John 3:14-18