Mood: Today, at this moment, I am feeling a bit of nervous anticipation. I just finished emailing our agency to ask if we've been shown to anybody in the last 6 months. At the seminar we went to last year, we were told not to call all the time asking; to wait until 6 months had passed (we will get updated annually). So I took them very literally and waited until today to contact them.
In reality, finding out if we've shown shouldn't have a huge impact. I mean, these are the possible scenarios:
- We find out we haven't been shown to any expectant parents. We wonder "what's wrong with us??"
- We find out we've been shown to very few expectant parents but haven't been matched. We wonder "what's wrong with us??"
- We find out we've been shown to many expectant parents but haven't been matched. We wonder "what's wrong with us??"
Cravings: Well, I just woke up 1 1/2 hours ago and haven't eaten any breakfast yet, and since lunchtime is looming, I should probably get around to either eating my usual Cornflakes or starting to make lunch (I'm planning on warming up the quiche I made yesterday). Hmm...that sounds good; stomach's growling... I'll be right back! :)
Thoughts About Our Child: I recently put up new pictures of my 3 nieces and can't believe how old and mature they look. They are now 14, almost 10, and 8. I feel sad that our child(ren) won't have cousins close to their age to play with. Cousins were so important to me growing up.
Thoughts About Our Expectant Mom: Thinking about another open adoption I know of where the birthmother is no longer in the picture, I am hoping our child's birthparents will choose to be a part of our life and our (as in theirs and ours) child's life. Even though I imagine that will have its difficulties, too.
Most Recent Baby Purchase/Gift: Really awesome photos are coming soon! And I am hoping Hubby & my sisters are planning a surprise baby shower for me, but if they aren't, well, there's really nothing I can do about it, right? :)
This Week God: reminded me that even though I am not ashamed of Him, it may come across to others that way if I avoid a situation I am intimidated by. Romans 1:16