Yes, there are still moments when the phone rings and my stomach lurches, but they are few and far between. I won't deny that, the longer the wait, the harder hope is to hang on to.
But I have not given up! Recently I have been thinking about tweaking our Dear Birthmother letter and making it more reflective of my heart, and less of a history write-up of ourselves. Also, a few times a week I work on our baby room. We are renovating our house ourselves, and what I've been doing is tearing wallpaper off the walls of the baby room. It's a chore to say the least, but every strip torn off makes me feel like I'm that much closer to bringing Baby home :) Also, this week we are going to be attending, for our first time, a support group at our agency for waiting adoptive parents.
|Hubby taking a pause during renos. This is looking from the living room to the wall of the baby room. We are widening one closet into a nook for our computer desk; this will make the baby room closet slightly smaller.|
|Perhaps one day I will write a series of blog posts on friendships.|