The ABC's of Me

Just because I like these silly little survey thingies.  Nothing deep here.  I found this over at Confessions of an Infertile.

A. Attached or Single?  Attached.  Been married to my wonderful hubby now for over 8 years!

B. Best Friend?  That would be said Hubby.  I love spending time with him :)

C. Cake or Pie?   Not a big cake fan (except for maybe ice-cream cake!).  I do love me some apple pie!

D. Day of Choice?  Sundays & Mondays.  Sundays because we actually go somewhere, do something, be with people.  Mondays because I can stay home away from people, lol, and get things done.

E. Essential Item?  Water.  I need a bottle of water with me even if I'm running a quick errand.

F. Favorite Color?  I love blues.

G. Gummy Bears or Worms?  Both are good.  Both hurt my teeth.  I think I slightly prefer the worms.

H. Hometown?  Hm.  I grew up in the country in the municipality of Ste. Anne, went to the doctor in Ste. Anne, school in Blumenort and later Steinbach, had a Landmark phone number, and a Steinbach mailbox, went to church in Blumenort and later Ridgewood.  (That was all living in the same house, by the way.)  You tell me; I've never known how to answer it.  As a kid a teacher asked me where I lived and I replied "in the bush" LOL.

I. Favorite Indulgence?  Chocolate.  And lately I've found some yummy soy-free chocolate which makes me very happy.

J. January or July?   July, hands down.  I prefer heat over cold.  However, I do live in the center of North America, meaning that we have extreme temperatures at both ends.  But I'm still going to pick +30C (July) over -30C (January).  (If I converted that correctly, I believe that would be 86F in July and -22F in January.)

K. Kids?   That would be nice, yes, please.

L. Life Isn’t Complete Without?  See letter (K).

M. Marriage Date? April 16

N. Number of Brothers/Sisters? One brother, two sisters.

O. Oranges or Apples?  I can't eat citrus unfortunately so apples it is.  Thankfully I like them.

P. Phobias?   Spiders.  Particularly t*******as (no, I can't even handle seeing it spelled).  Be nice.

Q. Quotes?  Oh, I have so many favourites!  Today we'll go with this one:  "There isn't a note of mediocrity in all of His creation...and all of the beauty we create with human hands is only imitation." ~David Phelps' song "Virtuoso"~

R. Reasons to Smile?   Jesus Christ & being saved (sorry, I know that sounds like a vague cliche, there's more under My Testimony), my hubby & his love, hope for the future, and well, cute kittens.  If you don't smile at a kitten's antics, something is wrong.

S. Season of Choice?   Not Winter.  Spring, Summer, Fall.  All good.  Winter not good.  (Except for Christmas.)

T. Tag 5 People?  

U. Unknown Fact About Me?   There's very little unknown about me.  I'm a pretty open book, over-sharer, blurt it all out, can't keep secrets kind of a person.  If there's any unknown facts about me I haven't shared, a public blog is probably not the first place I'd pick to share it, though ;)

V. Vegetable?  Corn or cucumber.

W. Worst Habit?   Just one?  Probably doubting.  Doubting Hubby, God, myself.

X. Xray or Ultrasound?  I'm supposed to pick a favourite, lol, or what?  I've had both and don't care for either, thank you very much. 

Y. Your Favorite Food?   Well, it must involve cheese in some way.  Maybe I'll just say cheese.

Z. Zodiac Sign?   Meh, don't believe in that stuff. 

Thanks for reading! :)

Waiting

I find it astounding how difficult the waiting is, this early on.  We've only waited 2 months.  I feel almost embarrassed posting about waiting when some of my fellow bloggers have been waiting years upon years upon years. 

I suppose it feels longer than 2 months because first there was the waiting for hubby to also feel ready to ttc.  Then there was the waiting to get pg.  Then there was the waiting to decide what to do about my epilepsy/meds in relation to babies, and the grieving the loss of never going to have birthchildren.  Then there was the waiting while we switched me from one med to the other.  Then there was the waiting for enough money to start the adoption process.  Then there was all the paperwork and everything that needs to be done to get approved.  And then we arrived at 2 months ago.  (See my timeline.)  So I don't really feel like it's been 2 months waiting to have a baby.  I feel like it's been at least 5 years since I first felt like I really wanted a baby.

Has anybody else noticed that really fine line between wanting your baby, and coveting?  It's so easy to justify my emotions and desires, and say I deserve this.  Every woman should be able to be a mother if they want to.  It's natural.  It's instinct.  Biological clock and everything.  But even good things can be coveted, and wishing jealously and desperately for something that isn't mine yet is sin.  Anyway, just an aside, something I've been chewing on a bit lately.

I've noticed that pms makes the waiting extra hard.  I get brutal pms (technically called pmdd) so of course everything feels worse during the 7 - 10 days before my period, and waiting is definitely one of those things.  Hubby has to constantly reassure me we will get chosen one day!

The average waiting time with our agency is 2 years.  Hubby is expecting our wait to be 1.5 years (why, I don't know, I think he thinks we have a stellar profile or something); I'm expecting our wait to be 2.5 years (I think my epilepsy will hinder us).  In this case, I really wouldn't mind if Hubby is right and I am wrong, though!!

The stats with our agency are out for the first half of 2013.  (For private adoptions only) there are 31 applicants who have applied for adoption; 20 applicants who have been approved (that includes us!); 4 applicants who have been matched (babies not born yet or 21 day waiting period not up yet); 9 placements; and 72 prospective adoptive parents currently active (approved & waiting for match - includes us).  (I believe our agency does roughly 14 placements a year; with 1 - 2 reversals a year.)  There have been 33 birthparents who have contacted our agency to inquire about adoption; 19 birthparents who have come into the agency for counseling to explore their options; 5 whom have matched with prospective adoptive parents; 7 whom have placed their child for adoption;  and 5 who are actively involved with the decision-making process with an adoption counselor (choose us! choose us! lol!).

I try not to think about getting chosen too much.  But I do. All the time.  When does this go away and you just get back to "normal life"?  It may be 6 years before we're chosen and I will go nutty if this is on my mind 24/7, lol!

Belated Father's Day Post :)

Sorry I've been MIA so far this month!  I think after doing the June Blog Challenge (blogging every day) I just was relieved to not have to blog for a while!

I just wanted to show you what I got for Hubby for Father's Day:

from Adoption Bug

He's already worn it quite a bit and has had a lot of compliments on it :)